Saturday, March 31

Kindergarten

This has been a difficult post to write. I have tried at least four times, and the correct words just won't form. Is it because of my codependent nature? Am I afraid of disappointing the blogging homeschoolers? I think so.

I guess I'll just make it as simple as it is. We will not be homeschooling next year. We will be sending our daughter, Tater, to a Christian school for kindergarten.

I feel taking Tater out of preschool last fall was the right decision. I can't describe the satisfaction I feel knowing that I taught her so many of the things that she knows. It is wonderful to plan our days according to what we need or want to do, not the schedule of an institution. I enjoy spending these days with her so much...

However, I feel that an enormous burden has been lifted from my shoulders. Yes, homeschooling her next year is a burden that I don't think I can bear. I really don't think I would be capable of giving my kids what they need next year if I had to homeschool. Therefore, I have peace about sending Tater to a great Christian school.

Let me tell you about the school. It is a preschool and kindergarten that are a ministry of a great church. We are members elsewhere, but we attend MOPS there, so Tater is already familiar with the grounds. The school day starts at 9:00 and ends at 1:00. I really like the short day schedule! They use the Abeka curriculum, so she should read well by the end of the year. There are two kindergarten classes. Each class only has 10 students. Yea, small classes! We will get a discount on tuition if I volunteer. I want to be very involved anyway, so the discount is just an added bonus. Plus, yesterday, I was so happy to learn that one of Tater's dear friends will also be attending.

This decision for kindergarten has no bearing on what we decide to do for Tater when first grade comes around, or for Little Man. We may do Christian school, charter school, public school, or homeschool. We know that keeping Tater home is the right decision for this year. Sending her to kindergarten is the right decision for next year. What is in store after that? God knows, but we don't, yet. We are seeking His direction.

Wednesday, March 28

Some of My Cakes

I love decorating cakes. Here are a few of the ones I've made over the last year. I'm still learning.





Friday, March 23

What do I want?

This morning I turned on my CD player. I needed music to clean the kitchen by. Switchfoot's album, The Beautiful Letdown, was in the changer. Yardboy gave it to me as a gift when I was miserable in my pregnancy with Little Man. I used to listen to it all the time, but not so much lately. This morning one of the songs meant much more to me than it ever did. I think it is because I am actively seeking God for change in my life. I want to be more than just okay.

More Than Fine

When I wake in the morning
I want to blow into pieces
I want more than just okay, more than just okay

When I'm up with the sunshine
I want more than just a good time
I want more than just okay, more than just okay

I'm not givin' up, givin' up now
I'm not givin' up, not backing down

More than fine, more than bent on getting by
More than fine, more than just okay

When I'm lit with sunrise
I want more than just the blue skies
I want more than just okay, more than okay

More than oceans away from the dawn
More than oceans away from who we are
More than oceans, more than oceans,
More than fine

Thursday, March 22

New Profile

Wow! It is amazing how much I have changed and grown since last September.

Blogging helps me to fully explore my thoughts on a subject. I feel I know myself better when I write (or type) everything out. I know, you are thinking that my thoughts are pretty shallow, but the ones you see here are only a fraction of what has materialized since September. Being willing to put simple, non-threatening thoughts in a public forum has lead me to honestly journal and admit to my deepest, most secret thoughts, if only to myself.


This is what my old proflie looked like:

Curly Mommy
Gender: Female
Occupation: At home mom with a Registered Nurse license
Location: Southeast : United States

About Me

I am a Christian, stay-at-home, homeschooling, MOPS mom of two, Tater and Little Man. My husband, Yardboy, can't believe I am blogging. I am working on becoming a Lactation Consultant. I believe in eating whole, natural foods, but I am too cheap to buy organic most of the time. I am creative and good with my hands.

Interests

mothering
homemaking
scrapbooking
photography
tea parties
coffee
cooking
baking
natural foods
whole foods
cake decorating
La Leche League
MOPS
gardening
curly hair
nursing
homeschooling
depression
food addiction
health

Favorite Movies

Three Seasons
Princess Bride
The Sound of Music
The Matrix Trilogy
The Lord of the Rings Trilogy
No horror movies. They make me have bad dreams.

Favorite Music
Third Day
David Crowder Band
Beatles
U2

Favorite Books

Curly Girl
You The Owner's Manual
You On a Diet
The Breastfeeding Answer Book I don't have much time to read for pleasure.

All of that is still true, but I have changed my focus. My new profile reflects the growth I am experiencing.

Wednesday, March 21

Do I care too much about what people think of me?

YES!
Do I obsess about hurting others' feelings?
YES!
Do I make things worse by trying to fix the codependent messes I make?
YES!
Do I make others' problems my own?
YES!
Do I fear letting new friends in?
YES! Terrified!

I want to have friends, but I am so afraid that I will screw thing up like I have in the past. I NEED to have HEALTHY friendships!

This is what I read this morning:

Proverbs 29:25 (Amplified Bible)
The fear of man brings a snare, but whoever leans on, trusts in, and puts his confidence in the Lord is safe and set on high.

Proverbs 29:25 (The Message)
The fear of human opinion disables;
trusting in God protects you from that.

Proverbs 29:25 (New Living Translation)
Fearing people is a dangerous trap,
but trusting the Lord means safety.

I need to cling to HIM if I am going to have healthy friendships. I need to do what HE desires for me.

Will the rest fall into place if I totally depend on HIM?
Yes,I think so.

Tuesday, March 20

New Every Morning



Have you ever stood
at the edge of the ocean
and watched the waves come in?
God's love is like the waves--
constant, steady, sure.
He says His mercies
are new every morning.
Every day we get a new wave
of His mercy, grace, and love.

by: Holley Gerth

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Lamentations 3:22-24 (The Message)

God's loyal love couldn't have run out,
his merciful love couldn't have dried up.
They're created new every morning.
How great your faithfulness!
I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over).
He's all I've got left.

Monday, March 12

Why I Like Blogging/Thanks

Blogging helps me to fully explore my thoughts on various subjects. I feel I know myself better when I write (or type) everything out.

I know, you are thinking that my thoughts are pretty shallow, but the ones you see here are only a fraction of what has materialized since September.

Being willing to put simple, non-threatening thoughts in a public forum has gradually lead me to honestly journal and admit to my deepest, most secret thoughts, if only to myself.

Sunny, Thank you so much for gently pushing me toward blogging.

Blog Friends, Thank you for reading and commenting. Thank you for allowing me to read and comment on your posts.

Family and Face-to-Face Friends, Thank you for not rolling your eyes when I get overly excited about a blog.

Friday, March 9

SERENITY NOW!


Everyone knows this part of the Serenity Prayer.
Here is the entire prayer by Reinhold Niebuhr:
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God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardship as the pathway to peace;
taking, as Jesus did,
this sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it;
trusting that You will make all things right
if I surrender to Your will;
so that I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with You forever in the next.
Amen.
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As you can see, I couldn't resist the Seinfeld reference. :)
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Thursday, March 8

Parent's Wish

Heirloom rose bush from my parents.


Deuteronomy 5:16 (New International Version)

Honor your father and your mother, as the LORD your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the LORD your God is giving you.
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Saturday, March 3

Lunar Eclipse




This morning I excitedly told Tater all about the upcoming lunar eclipse. I showed her some websites and even found one with a video and very dramatic music.

She agreed that she wanted to see the eclipse, but wanted to get back to Qubo.

The email I received from the local homeschool association said that the eclipse would be best viewed at 6:29 pm on the eastern horizon. So, after a Pizza Hut dinner, we hopped into Yardboy's truck in search of the eastern horizon.

Two problems.

First, we live in a hilly, southern city that really values trees. There isn't much horizon to be found.

Second, this evening was very overcast.

After ruling out our first few options, we got an a four-lane highway and headed due east in search of some clear (or slightly less cloudy) horizon. After driving 23 moonless miles, we decided to go home. We were so disappointed, especially Tater.

When we made our turn we saw the most spectacular sunset ever! All that time we had been searching and we were missing the incredible beauty that was behind us.

We continued our scenic, yet moonless drive into the quaint, little town we used to live in. We showed Tater the house we owned when she was a baby.

The drive home was nice. The 20 mile stretch of two-lane highway was lined by crepe myrtle trees on both sides. The branches were bare, but still very pretty.

An hour and a half after leaving home in search of the moon, we arrived back in our neighborhood. As we turned the corner we couldn't believe our eyes! Peeping over the 50 foot oak trees and through a hole in the clouds, was the moon and it was still in partial shadow!

Our kids got to see their first lunar eclipse from inside our truck at the neighborhood park. The sky watching was over pretty quickly. It was getting late and they were getting grouchy. However, I'm happy. THEY DID SEE IT, AFTER ALL!