Friday, December 29

Food Addict

Do you struggle with overeating or constant dieting?
Have you been on a diet and lost all the weight, but need support not to go back to unhealthy behaviors?
Do you ever feel out of control and unable to stop eating?
Do you eat out of frustration, anger, or fear?
Does it seem impossible to eat only when you are hungry and stop when you are full?
Do you eat to feel comfort?

Me? Yes.


Throughout our lives many of us have turned to food to ease our pain or fear.
We felt comfort in eating and found ourselves turning to food whenever we were hurt, angry or frustrated.
Food became our comforter, our friend.
Some of us may have one certain food that we can not stop eating, or are unable to eat only in healthy amounts.
Some of us may have been emotionally, physically or sexually abused and use food to cope with the emotions of those events.
Some of us may have had healthy eating habits as children or young adults, but at some point in our lives we chose to overeat and lost the ability to discern when we were physically hungry or when we were physically full.
Some of us may have turned to food after obtaining sobriety in other areas.
We thought food was "safe,not realizing it could become our "drug of choice".
We have focused on our body image instead of our health.
Many of us have tried various diet programs, exercising, medications or many other ways of trying to control our eating habits.
We have failed over and over and are left feeling guilty, incapable and unlovable.
We have given in to the idea that there is one perfect diet or pill out there that can save us, if only we could find it.
Some of us believe that thin people do not struggle with food addiction. We have also failed to recognize food as our "drug of choice".
As a result of our food addiction we feel out of control and may struggle with many other areas of our lives.
Some of us have low self esteem which may affect our motivation, and our relationship with God and others.


We came to realize that we could not control our addiction to food and that we are powerless.
We understand that our problems are emotional and spiritual.
We have become ready to face our denial and accept the truth about our lives and our food addiction.
We are ready to accept responsibility for our actions and make Jesus the Lord of our lives.
We are dedicated to learning about healthy eating.
We are committed to learning the difference between physical and emotional hunger.
We are willing to turn to God when we are not physically hungry.
We will begin to view food as fuel for our body so that we will not eat unless we are physically hungry and stop when we are physically full.
We are willing to begin the process of recovery and working through the 12 steps to heal ourselves, and start living the life God has planned for us.
We are willing to find a sponsor and accountability partners.
We realize our group provides a safe place to share our fears, hurt or anger and also is a place to rejoice in victories.
We have become willing to face our character defects and work through these feelings in our group.
We are willing to take the focus off of food and focus on God.
We recognize that recovery from food addiction is not about our body image or what foods we eat, but it is about trusting God and having an intimate relationship with Him.
We are willing to believe and trust in God's love for us, and to see ourselves as He sees us.
We are willing to seek a closer relationship with God.
By facing our fears we have realized that Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit are what we need to overcome them.
As we surrender our food addiction to God, we will come to know that He is all we need.
We will continue to seek a daily quiet time with God and will rely on the Holy Spirit as our source of comfort. We will be transformed by the renewing of our minds.
We will use the tools of recovery: calling our accountability partners, journaling and reading the Bible.

I am just beginning to Celebrate my Recovery from food addiction.

For Cheri...

In my profile I state that I believe in eating whole, natural foods. This recipe does not fall into that category, but it sure does taste good. Each Christmas for the last 3 years I have made some sort of braid or ring. I got this recipe out of The Pampered Chef cookbook All the Best from Our Kitchens to Yours. It looks really impressive, so it is great for parties.

Broccoli Chicken Braid

2 C. cooked chicken, chopped
1 C. broccoli, chopped
1/2 C. red bell pepper, chopped
1 clove garlic, pressed
8 oz. sharp Cheddar cheese, shredded
1/2 C. mayonnaise
2 tsp. All-purpose Dill Mix (or 1 teaspoon dill weed)
1/4 tsp. salt
2 pkg. (8 oz. each) refrigerated crescent rolls
1 egg white, lightly beaten
2 T. slivered almonds

Preheat oven to 375ºF.

Chop chicken and broccoli and place in bowl. Add chopped red bell pepper. Press garlic over mixture and shred cheese over mixture. Add mayonnaise, dill mix and salt. Mix well.
Unroll package of crescent rolls. Do not separate. Arrange longest sides of dough across width of 12 x 15-inch pan (I use the Pampered Chef stoneware) and repeat with remaining package of dough. Roll out dough to seal perforations. On long side of pan, cut dough into strips 1 1/2 inches apart, 3 inches deep leaving approximately 6 inches in the center of dough for filling. Spread filling evenly over middle of dough.
To braid: lift strips of dough across mixture to meet in center, twisting each strip one turn. Continue alternating strips to form braid. Tuck ends under to seal at ends. Brush egg white over dough and sprinkle with almonds. Baked 25-28 minutes or until deep golden brown.

Wednesday, December 27

Perfectly Peaceful Christmas

Christmas was really good this year. We didn't try to please everyone and we didn't go overboard. Well, we spent too much money, but I am talking about overcommitment today.

Our front yard isn't lit up. I put my 3 year-old Wal-Mart wreath on the door and made bows for the carriage lights on the garage and the mailbox. That's it for the outdoors. One of our neighbors asked if we had a Christmas tree inside. Uh, yep. Their yard is really "decorated." I guess he thought we weren't celebrating sufficiently. I have a lot less to clean up and I am happy about that.

We told our family that we would be at our house on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. We did not travel on either of those days. We did gather with my extended family on the 23rd and with Yardboy's family on 26th. Both families are about an hour away, so we easily made it back home both nights. We decided that is was important for our children to go to bed at home on Christmas Eve and wake up at home on Christmas Day. We issued an open invitation to anyone who wanted to celebrate at our house on those days. My parents, Cabbagehead, Ma (my beloved paternal grandmother), and Auntie C (my mom's youngest sister, a mere 10 years older than me) accepted the invitation.

My family arrived in the late afternoon on Christmas Eve. We had a dinner of rich, fattening party food. Mmmmm. I served a chicken broccoli braid, baked brie, spinach and artichoke dip with tortilla chips, veggies, apples, crackers, cookies, truffles, and sweet tea.

After dinner we went to a church. The candle light service was held inside the church since it was pouring rain outside. It was really nice to have so much of my family in church with me on Christmas Eve.

Before tucking the kids in (wearing their Christmas pajamas, of course) we had more cookies and spiced cider. After tucking the kids in we broke out the eggnog, brandy, and rum. Just a little bit, mind you.

I absolutely love setting out the kids presents on Christmas Eve. Everyone loves their gifts.

I couldn't bear the thought of having another traditional Christmas dinner. Instead, we had a leg of lamb, Greek salad, pita bread, hummus, baklava, and everything else Greek that I could think of. Ma said it was the best Christmas dinner she ever had. Wasn't that sweet of her?

After our guests left in midafternoon, the four of us sat around and watched Tater's new Barbie Princess movie and then we went for a walk. Little Man pushed Tater's tattered pink baby doll stroller the entire time. Tater pushed her Baby Alive in another doll stroller that isn't quite so worn. They were really cute.

Christmas night supper was leftover party food. I love the person who invented the microwave oven!

No fighting, no rushing, no trying to be absolutely perfect. This Christmas could not have been any better.

Monday, December 25

Christmas Kids

Little Man and Tater

Reading The Nativity in Christmas pajamas.

Friday, December 15

Gorilla Glue

K introduced me to Gorilla Glue last spring when we were working on the MOPS float. Thank you K. I love the stuff.

When I pulled all of my Christmas crap out of the attic several things were broken. Gorilla glue came to the rescue.

Santa's music box stays in now. The little angle is not severed in half anymore. The little kid being attacked by the dog is now attached to her legs and the Nut Cracker snow globe has it's hat again.

The down side of gorilla glue? It doesn't work very well on baskets made of paper grocery bags (another project I did with K) and it stains clothing permanently. The purple fabric is the shirt I wore while working on the MOPS float. It is now a sleep shirt. You can see the stain on the upper left of the close up photo.

If I were Oprah, I would give this stuff away on my "Favorite Things" episode.

Wednesday, December 13

In Full Swing

The Christmas celebrations are in full swing!

Tater loves the Advent candles. She gets so excited talking about the meanings of the candles and can't wait to light the "BIG WHITE ONE!"

Last week we were at the Gaylord Palms Resort in Orlando, Florida. Yardboy had to go there for a work conference so that meant the hotel room was FREE. If we had to pay for it ourselves, we would never stay there. We couldn't pass up the opportunity.

While we were there the kids and I went to see ICE. It was amazing and cold. Little Man was very unhappy about having to wear a parka (provided by ICE) but enjoyed the experience after he got comfortable. Tater got to go down an ice slide over and over and over. I'm sure the idea is funny for people who live in cold climates. We really enjoyed our 20 minutes of nine degree "weather" but were very happy to get back to sunny Florida weather.

We arrived back home around 4:00 p.m. Thursday, and then it was off again. We were at church for dinner a little after 5:00. All four of us got into costume and headed outside by 6:30. We were "travelers" in our church's Living Christmas Story (a drive-through Christmas pageant). Little Man happily lasted as long as I could carry him in the sling and then it was off to the nursery for him. Tater, Yardboy, and had so much fun "traveling."

We just about froze at the Living Christmas Story Friday night. Little Man spent his evening playing in the nursery. Tater tried to make it, but her six layers of clothing and cider just couldn't keep her warm enough. She exited to the nursery about an hour into the production. I spent much of the evening passing out cider to chilled actors and telling them to hide the brown cups from the passers-by. We learned that hand warmers are our friends.

The experience of doing the Living Christmas story was great, especially for Tater. We plan on participating again next year.

Saturday I took Tater to see the children's performance of The Nut Cracker by a local ballet company. We enjoyed it thoroughly. It was nice to have some mommy-daughter time.

Sunday we all went to Little C's second birthday party after church. It was a wonderful party! The Tater got to ride the new pony, Cinnamon. Little Man had a screaming fit and didn't get to ride. Oh well, maybe next time. We had cake and ice cream and then went on a hayride. The weather could not have been more perfect!

Celebrating Christmas is so much fun, but we have intentionally taken a slower pace this week.

Tuesday, December 12

Too Busy

I love Christmas and what it stands for.

I don't love the time required of me at Christmas.

I am too busy to even think.

Maybe I will have the time to write a real post soon.

Until then, Merry Christmas.

Friday, December 1

Blue Chip

Tonight I went to Celebrate Recovery for the second time. Last time I went to CR101. This time I went to a real small group.

I didn't know which small group I would go to until I was actually in the worship service. I planned on one thing, but God had other plans. I really didn't want to go that group. I thought I was past all of that junk, but I just couldn't shake the feeling that I needed to be there. I am proud to say that I listened and went to the right one .

I am looking forward to experiencing what God has in store for me. God is continuing the work he started in October related to fear. He is also attacking the deep seeded anger and resentment that penetrates into all parts of my life, especially my relationships with those I love. I am expecting some deep healing. Healing that I didn't even know I needed until recently.

The other side of the blue chip says, "Celebrate Recovery MY GRACE IS ENOUGH FOR YOU."