Tuesday, August 21

Trying

Don't give up, but don't push too hard.
Pushing too hard just leads to resentment.
Did I push too hard?
Should I push harder?

Sometimes they seem to want my company.
Other times they seem very uncomfortable around me.
I'm confused.
Should I stay or go?

Trying to help.
Trying to comfort.
Trying to fix.
Trying to do ANYTHING to make it better, to make the pain go away.

When I try, I meet with resistance.
They question my motives.
Would I resist too?
Yes.

I don't want to be controlled.
I don't want to be controlling.
I don't want to be manipulated.
I don't want to be manipulating.

I want them to be well.
I want them to be whole.
I mirror the pain others feel.
I feel their aches as if they were my own.

5 comments:

Sunny said...

Very powerful~!

cheri said...

We have a very painful situation in our family right now. Can't blog about it, but I am walking the tight rope between saying too much and saying too little.

I am praying a lot.

Barbara (aka Layla) said...

I agree with Sunny's comment. This was very moving - I could feel the emotion behind it.

Curly Mommy said...

Thanks Girls. You are all in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Psalm 125 A song for pilgrims ascending to Jerusalem. 1 Those who trust in the Lord are as secure as Mount Zion;
they will not be defeated but will endure forever.
2 Just as the mountains surround Jerusalem,
so the Lord surrounds his people, both now and forever.
3 The wicked will not rule the land of the godly,
for then the godly might be tempted to do wrong.
4 O Lord, do good to those who are good,
whose hearts are in tune with you.
5 But banish those who turn to crooked ways, O Lord.
Take them away with those who do evil. May Israel have peace!

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