Saturday, February 3

Red Chip, Blue Chip

Last night I got a RED CHIP and another BLUE CHIP!

At Celebrate Recovery, I received a Red Chip to mark 30 days of abstaining from over-eating!

Now, this is a really, really big thing. I have never intentionally lost weight. I have never been even slightly successful on a diet. I have tried South Beach, The Zone, Dr. Phil, Weight Watchers...

The problem was this: I was relying on my own will power, which stinks (I wanted to say "sucks" but it really makes my dad cringe when I use that word, so I won't). Anyway, now I am seeking and relying on God's will. Cool concept, huh? God's will is so much better than mine. My will is fragile, fickle, selfish, impatient. God's will is perfect.

I'm not saying that I have eaten perfectly in the last month. I am saying that I didn't go on any all-out binges. I did stop eating when I realized that I was eating too much. I am learning to analyze my thoughts when I head to the pantry and keep my behavior in check. I am learning to ask God to show me what to do when I don't physically need food.

I should also note that in the last 30 days I have been exercising regularly, and enjoying it. That goes right along with the food addiction. I handed my desire to avoid exercise to God when I gave him my eating problems. He took it and gave me a desire to take care of the body he gave me in return.

I also got a Blue Chip to mark the beginning of my journey to recovery from codependency. It is just a little piece of plastic, but it means so much. It symbolizes the end of sickly relationships and the birth of healthy relationships. God made us social creatures. I am ready to learn how to relate to, be with, serve, and love people the way He intends.

This "road to recovery" is amazing. I am looking forward to what God has in store for me.


Crickey said...

This is all so exciting! Go God! And Go Curly Mommy! I'm really proud of you. :)

cheri said...

Great job! Keep up the good work!

Curly Mommy said...

Crickey and Cheri,
Your encouraging words mean so much to me. Thanks.

Sunny said...

I am very proud of you!

Curly Mommy said...

Thanks so much, dear friend.

Keith said...

I began running 6 nights a week about 5 months ago and have never felt better. Also I have a friend who coined a phrase that I won't soon foget that simply goes,"Eating is highly overrated." Congrats on your accomplishments. Let go and let God.

Kris's Koner said...

Just keep praying ,just keep singing, and just keep putting the Lord first and you will be just fine. I'll keep praying too.