My Frienemy
Sun-tzu said, "Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer." I guess keeping an enemy close is a good idea if you are strong enough to thwart their attacks. I'm not strong enough. I keep losing battle, after battle, after battle. Who is my best friend? Food. Who is my worst enemy? Food. I am a foodie. I love to cook, and eat, and experience food. The anticipation, smell, taste, appearance, texture, chewing, swallowing, and feeling of fullness all bring me considerable pleasure. I use it to celebrate, draw closer to loved ones, show affection, and accept affection. Food is my safe, always-there-for-me cure-all. I medicate myself with it when I'm sad, hurting, bored, angry, tired, and lonely. I don't stop eating when I've had enough. After overeating, guilt and regret hang over me. I want to say that I won't overeat again, but I know saying that is useless. I can't control my tendency to eat too much! I wish I could run far away from my "frien